blogging - Vlogging

This blog is kinda dead... it's the sad truth!:( i have started Vlogging, because of my Advents Calendar gifts, and i think my new way of blooging, is going to be by vlogging:)

You can find my youtube channel HERE :) ENJOY
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update! 11/12-12

It is today the 11. .....

I hope that something magic will happen tomorrow at 12.12.12 12.12.12 :) that would be so cool!

Oh well.. i hold my nose down, cause i am not even sure people know it is the 12.12.12 tomorrow! haha:)

i haven't been blogging for a long time now, and i just wanted you guys to know that i am doing great! I feel kinda homesick right now because i feel like some of my friends don't care about me anymore.. and that hurts! it makes me think so much about what i left in Denmark  and how much i miss some of you guys! + all of the things i am missing.. my boyfriends driver license, 1. Christmas with my boyfriend, my dog's 2. years birthday, my dads 60 years birthday, my sisters 18, my own 16, first valentine with my boyfriend, etc.! :( i feel like i am skipping so much!

I hope i'll feel better soon! usually i would have been in christmas mood for more than a month, but i am still not there yet! this is going to be a special year, that is for sure. They don't do anything out of new year, neither do they do out of christmas.. ofcourse they do something, it is just not as much as we do! we can kinda say that my christmas is on saturday, cause that is when we are going to gather together with the entire family, eat and do stuff... i miss my family, friends and boyfriend more and more.. it's hard...

I love you guys!

PEEPS!!! :D - skype

I'll be on Skype Saturday in the morning! if you want to Skype with me, i'll be on! i might not have time for everybody (i don't expect a lot of people to actually read this, but..) this means that i might tell you that i need to say goodbye when the conversation(s) dies! cause i have a lot of things to do to! but i might not be available in a long time in the future, so if you want to Skype with me, Saturday is your time to do it in / on!:)

my Skype name is: VMinFighter

if you add me, and i don't know you i might not accept you (to all the strangers who reads this!)

i just ask for one thing

I am trying my best to be a part of the culture here.. and i want to live MY life... this means without you, yes i might be talking to you, and i might still care about you, but don't pull me to denmark right now.. i only have 6 months left, and actually.. i don't want to go home, cause people in denmarks don't know who i am anymore, i have changed.. and even before that, they didn't know who i was, i didn't even know myself, and i have tried to figure out who i was my entire life, without getting an answer.. but that answer, has now got answerd! i know who i am, what i need, what i love and what i want. SO i only ask you about to be patient! cause i am already stuggeling with the thoughs of leaving my first and forever best friends, my life.. everything, so don't make me sad about actually missing you guys! cause if you care about me, they you will know that i care about you, and i think about you all the time. Even though i might not show it, you will be with me forever.

 (i just wanted i could move over here... don't get mad at me for my priorities)

that is the truth.. and i need sleep.. so goodnight peeps!

- stay tuned!

... If i get hurted, will you then be there to carry me around?

.. my back... i am so tired of having a cronic injury, cause it is just suddenly there, and then it just disappears!:( but well.. it exploded in my chem. class today, and i could sit down, i couldn't breath.. i couldn't do nothing!... it sucked! i had to go to the nurse, where i got to lay on ice, i felt so much more clever than the nurse, because i knew that what i actually should do, was heat.. but i didn't tell them that, that would be rude! i layed with ice for almost an hour, even though i know that you should only have it on for 20 min, max. it didn't help, but at least it made me skip my pe class!!!! i would do anything for not to run with that back! the lady gave me 3 pills, don't ask me which, but they made me so dissy, and tired.. so my english class was so weird for me, cause my head was spinning around, and right now we are making our essay for the finals, and if it isn't hard enough already.. i really don't understand what i am doing, it is just hard :(

after school i had work, and i only did it so kayte could look at my back. she did different stretches, and tests on me, but not of them where possitive (i am really flexible, don't ask me how i got flexible, cause i haven't been it for a long time!), so she just decided to let me lay with heat! later that day one of my friends had an injury, and he needed "electro stimulation" of the muscle (google it), and we kayte just tried it on us because we wanted to try it on full level, the first time i tried it, was really fun. It feels like your body is cramping, but the feeling is more like when your foot is sleeping, like that feeling of tickerling 'ish feeling. Second time she did it was fun to, except for that, when she turned it off.. i threw up! don't ask me how or why, i just did.. it was so weird. The pain i have in my back is a really sharp pain, and it hurts a lot, and it makes me sick so much it hurts, but i didn't expect it to actually make my stomach ready for thowing up!!!!!
i asked kayte 2 hours after, what she thought it could be, and she said that because i have that sharp pain, no reaction on the muscle tests, and the the pain is so painfull, and because i threw up, she would guess it was a discusolaps, but she couldn't say anything for sure... and if it continues, she would recommend me to go to a doctor and get a x-ray, just to make sure, especially if i was going to do sports! i got so sad.. i normaly don't listen to people when they say they think i have some kind of injury, cause if they aren't sure, i am not sure, and i don't have to worry about it then, but my emotions are just so unstable, because i keep thinking about that i am going home, and that i just want to stay here forever and never return... my life is wonderfull, and yes i miss some parts of my old life, but.. what i have now, is things that i have always dreamed of, and that i know i wont be able to get ever again :(... i don't want to cry now.. so, i'll end this now!